Silencing the Doubt


I woke up this morning with nothing much to say. But often those are just my quiet moments in this writer’s block I am facing. I began to think about the one man I might consider a celebrity more than all the people in Hollywood. Dave Ramsey is my hero. Plain and simple. His hustle, his wisdom, and his financial planning have been a part of my admiration for over fifteen years. I am always ironically surprised by how that man can hustle even now as he is headed into the mentoring stage of his career.

I believe him when he says that success is nothing but standing on a pile of failures. How many times have I failed and yet I am still standing? Sometimes that is success enough for me, to be standing after the dust settles. Dave too went through failures. If you aren’t familiar with him or his story I urge you to look into this dynamic man. At first he seems to be a bit crazy. The man cuts credit cards for fun and prods the government with confident ease. His rants are spectacular to watch and I can only admire how he says what maybe many of us are thinking anyway.

Dave has written several books, spoken to crowds of thousands and started a movement to dump debt and enjoy financial freedom. The reality that he became a millionaire and lost it all, only to rebuild even stronger is awe-inspiring. Being a millionaire is not my goal in life. It might be a byproduct if I imitate his hustle, however.

“Seth Godin says, “Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you should set up a life you don’t need to escape from.”
― Dave RamseyEntreLeadership: 20 Years of Practical Business Wisdom from the Trenches

Touché, Seth Godin, Touché. I spent the last several years of my life looking for any means of escape or vacation. Slowly my job was killing me and though everyone around me could see it, I kept working there. Now we all know I didn’t last after seven years. And even as I sit and consider what I am to do next, I am relieved. I am post op week 2 now. That is how I saw all this. The day I was fired I saw it as post op day 0. The time where I was in recovery from having an amputation. And even though the nurse would want me to get up and walk, I was hesitant. By that night I did take my first steps post surgery. I considered starting this blog knowing I wished to be an author above anything. And I glanced jobs around town. Glanced only.

Post op days 1 and 2 I got up and went on with life, but was still in recovery phase. I spent time with friends and family enjoying this new reality. By post op day 2 I started this blog and wrote out my plan to head into a new phase in my life. I wish to be an author. I want to finally publish those books gathering dust in my hard drive. And I guess I could solve the mystery of the comma.

Now on post op week 2 I am starting to feel that stiff soreness of having an amputation. Doubt fills in and those little voices start asking me if I have what it takes. Do I have what it takes to be an author? I am certain. Do I have what it takes to be rehired in my profession? Well surely there isn’t a sticker on my name out there saying ‘Do not hire’. But I have to wonder at times. So I slow my brain back down and continue along my plan I laid out for myself on day 2.

“The Bible says in Habakkuk 2:2, “Write the vision and make it plain.” The written goal is the breakfast of champions. You just can’t do big things without making your goals specific, measurable, yours, with a time limit, and in writing.”
― Dave RamseyEntreLeadership: 20 Years of Practical Business Wisdom from the Trenches

I will not apologize for placing myself out there day after day. This blog is for me. A record of my journey into what could be the best decade of my life. Correction, what WILL be the best decade of my life. It is full of change. It is dynamic. That is what life is and if I am still standing like now, I will look back and be very thankful I got that amputation. I can’t wait to see where I go with all this.


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