Confession: I am a Nerd

“Why is being a nerd bad? Saying I notice you’re a nerd is like saying, ‘Hey, I notice that you’d rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you’d rather be thoughtful than be vapid, that you believe that there are things that matter more than the arrest record of Linsey Lohan. Why is that?”
― John Green

I am sure dear friends you are hardly surprised by this confession. But just as I walk into book stores and libraries to sniff books, I also have a love affair with all things written. So that leads me today to the appreciation of my new planner.

Most people keep their planners as just a calendar with things written in them and that is the end of it. But over the years I have watched the planner evolve into something interesting, something unique, and dare I say it? Cool! At my previous job I watched women spend hours on their planner making it like a little scrap-book of cute stickers and different colored ink. I was never that girl. Or at least I didn’t think I was.

Then came my new planner. When I got tired of staring at my planner from my previous life in a previous world, I found a planner based on color. Yep. Pink rose gold and with a symbol on it I can barely see and have yet to understand. It is existential to be sure. But when it arrived my brain exploded. It wasn’t a planner. NO friends! It was the very source of nerd love and inspiration for books!

Did I sniff it? Yes I did! I ran my hands over it and was glad to drop the toxicity of my former life set out in that old planner. This one came with stickers which I have never used before. It came with weekly planning and bullet journal style spaces for everything I never wished to think about and more. And so I went to work.

Even my plans to hit certain milestones turn nerdy. And I am not ashamed to be exactly as I am. I have places in this planner for quotes, goals, rewards, books, mentors, inspirations. It extends beyond the calendar to all aspects of my life. A true bullet journal.

“But the heart of my story is that the world opened up for me once I decided who I am– unapologetically.”
― Felicia Day, You’re Never Weird on the Internet

I am looking forward to spending time with this planner this year to grow as I set out to do. I will get an actual visual of what I want in life and then grab on with both hands as I always have. I can’t wait to play with my journal like I would a favourite book. It might be the nerd in me. But it is probably the book lover in me. The life lover in me. This journey is going to be awesome!